I thought I wanted to open my psychic gifts.
So I did.
I set intent. Hours and years of intent. I found my spirit guides. Then I took classes. I studied. Tarot. Shamanism. Psychic awakening. Energy healing.
What happened was surprising to me: my life got worse.
I was seeing things everywhere. I was walking into rooms and feeling icky energy. I would see someone walk by in the grocery store and I would notice challenged energy around them.
It took me years and struggle to realize the hard truth: I was co-dependent. Opening up my psychic gifts didn't change that; I was still co-dependent, now with psychic sight.
Before I opened my psychic gifts more fully I was the empathic kid wandering around trying to make sure everyone was OK. Are you OK? Are you sure?
I was taking on everyone else's bad moods, trying to make them better.
I worried. I stressed.
Opening up to spirituality did not change that pattern, it simply added more layers of awareness. Now I could not only empathically feel other people's feelings, I could now "see" and "hear" and "know" more now too.
And I fretted even more because it seemed their very energy was at stake! Are you OK? Are you sure?
My regular anxiety now included existential anxiety.
Was I supposed to walk up to friends and strangers and out myself as a psychic and give them.... info? Energy? A profound life-changing message? (Was the message even profound?)
What if they thought that was nuts?
What if that is nuts!
But what if I was supposed to?
After all, I had the psychic info now...
Around and around I went.
Until I got off the co-dependency merry-go-round.
As soon as I figured our regular boundaries for regular life, my psychic gifts transformed too.
If you are struggling like I was, the answer isn't taking a breath and telling everyone about your psychic info like it's a spiritual test. The solution is to lean into yourself more to learn boundaries, personal responsibility, and art of interdependent relationships.
Then your psychic gifts truly feel like a blessing.
All the great divine timing and knowing (and manifesting great parking spaces!) and none of the drama.
Or at least, mostly no drama.
We are human, after all. ;)
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