Opening Up Psychically While Still Co-Dependent Is A Mess (You Can Fix)

I thought I wanted to open my psychic gifts. 

So I did.

I set intent. Hours and years of intent. I found my spirit guides. Then I took classes. I studied. Tarot. Shamanism. Psychic awakening. Energy healing.

What happened was surprising to me: my life got worse.

Way worse.

I was seeing things everywhere. I was walking into rooms and feeling icky energy. I would see someone walk by in the grocery store and I would notice challenged energy around them.

• Was I supposed to do something about those blocks?
• Was I seeing those blocks because I was called to do something about them?
• Was this my calling?

It took me years and struggle to realize the hard truth: I was co-dependent. And I was still co-dependent.

Before I opened my psychic gifts more fully I was the empathic kid wandering around trying to make sure everyone was OK. Are you OK? Are you sure?

I was taking on everyone else's bad moods, trying to make them better. I worried. I stressed.

Opening up to spirituality did not change that pattern, it simply added more layers of awareness. Now I could not only empathically feel other people's feelings, I could now "see" and "hear" and "know" more now too.

And I fretted even more because it seemed their very energy was at stake! Are you OK? Are you sure?

I exchanged regular anxiety for existential anxiety. 

Was I supposed to walk up to friends and strangers and out myself as a psychic and give them.... info? Energy? A profound life-changing message? (Was the message even profound?)

What if they thought that was nuts?
What if that is nuts!

But what if I was supposed to?

After all, I had the psychic info now...

Around and around I went.

Until I got off the co-dependency merry-go-round.

As soon as I figured our regular boundaries for regular life, my psychic gifts transformed too. 

If you are struggling like I was, the answer isn't taking a breath and telling everyone about your psychic info like it's a spiritual test. The solution is to lean into yourself more to learn boundaries, personal responsibility, and art of interdependent relationships.

Then your psychic gifts truly feel like a blessing.

All the great divine timing and knowing (and manifesting great parking spaces!) and none of the drama.

Or at least, mostly no drama.

We are human, after all.